Afternoon dream

I've gone home to live, and everyone at home is bickering. I can feel negative vibes from everywhere. I slip out for a few moments to let things settle and for me to have some time. I go out onto  balcony. The colour is mostly pale green and it looks like it's been molded in plaster of paris. There are lots of odds and ends in the balcony. I find a lovely, smooth reclining surface to sit on and gaze out onto the-

It's the sea. The balcony is a boat now. I look around and I see Abhay. He's with 2 friends. They're laughing. They say they've always wanted to go surfing into the sea. I think about Pallavi- and there she is, plump like she used to be when we'd gone to Lakshadweep. She's wearing a grey zipped-up jacket and shorts. She's sitting on the far end of the boat and she's slouching and smiling at me a little sadly. There are lots of other people sitting on the left edge of the boat, who've all come to surf.

Suddenly, the boat is huge, huger than any boat I've ever seen. Pallavi is a speck in the distance, that's how big the boat is. The waves are really huge, dark grey in colour, and are falling onto the boat in large, sharp rectangles, and with great force. When a particularly large one has passed, I am surprised to find people still on the boat. I get some spray on myself now, and I see that everyone is having a really good time, cheering and screaming. 

I am back inside the house. It's Shamoo's birthday. Manjoo atya and Aji and Aai and Jaydeep are at home. Maybe jaydeep has just come from somewhere. He has a helmet in his hand. 

There are puranpolis with a bright blue filling. There's no cake. Aji tells Shamoo to cut the blue puranpolis instead of cake. She's okay with it. It seems normal, there being no cake. Maybe she chose it to be like this. Shamoo comes down in the black and white Chinese dress. She's wearing some strange crystal thing in her neck, like a small crystal locket on a chain. She says, "How do I look?" She looks happy.